Monday, August 20, 2012

Our Love story begins here







Our love story begins here..
Where we make promises sealed with meaningful kisses
Where we vow to except eachother even the imperfections
With you colors will seem brighter and moments will be so full of love and laughter it will seem the whole world has fallen away
And where taking life too seriously is never an option

Our love story begins here..
Promising passion in every aspect of our lives even in our quarrels
Promising to never end the day in anger
To see the beauty in all things
And good in all things and in one another and know we are constantly changing and evolving.. together

Our love story begins here..
Where there will be smiles a plenty
And gazes into your beautiful eyes that mean 1000 " I loves yous"
Kisses so deep its like im reaching your soul
Squeeze your hand as if doing so would save you
Hold you as if it was your only way to breathe

Our love story begins here..
Where youll always be my sunshine and youll always be my rain
Youll my greatest comfort and my greatest strength
Youll be my other half, my missing piece

Our story begins here..
Where I will say " I love you"
And you will say " I do"



Dedicated to Jay Franqui and Dwayne D. Beebe, such a sweet couple

Friday, July 20, 2012

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QBbU_wzWCgg&feature=related
Life won't always go your way And that won't ever change But you'll find blessings in the clouds And you'll find mercy in the rain And you'll have heartache down the road And tears shed from a broken soul But joy will seek you out and give you hope Like candles' lights in darkened rooms And how you sacrifice and try to make things right Is the whole world happy but you But hungry children cry while thirsty siblings die How did this life become so cruel And then the questions come and rare are answers known But this is still worth pushing through Cause every smile shown And Every laughing moment Confirms that life is beautiful I know you love me I know you really love me And I want to fall in love with you And I am guilty just like you And I will never save myself And all my formulas and secret recipes Will never take away the pain But I'll find healing in His wounds And I'll find warmth in lover's eyes Cause every drop of blood And every tear that's cried Confirms that life is beautiful Confirms that we are beautiful Confirms that you are beautiful I know you love me I know you really love me And I want to fall in love with you With you- Icarus Account

Sparkle

Monday, July 9, 2012

the one..

Read this quote, " If a girl is stupid enough to love you even after you broke her heart, than I gurantee you that shes the one" I agree with this but maybe the girl that loved you was stupid, blind, and maybe a little bit of a romantic. Hoping that maybe she could love you so hard and so much that youd see it, and really feel it. And it would be enough. And if she was "the one" then why is she alone, why does she cry, why does she ache for you? Maybe she wasnt the one, maybe you werent either.. but it sure feels like it. How do you get your heart and mind to get on same page?  All she knows is the way she felt when she was near you, the way her heart would beat, the look in your eyes, the way you kissed her and her knees would go weak...  shes just afraid she'll never feel that again.  Maybe she was the one... she defintely thought you were..

Sweet story that was shared with me

Once upon a time there was a beautiful princess named Momo, who dressed in silk and satin and lived high above the world on a snow-clad mountain-top, in a palace built of stained glass. She had everything her heart could desire. Nothing but the choicest food and wine ever passed her lips. She reclined on silken cushions and sat on ivory chairs. She had everything, as I say, but she was all alone.
All the people and things around her -- her footmen and ladies-in-waiting, her dogs and cats and birds, even her flowers -- were merely reflections.
The fact was, Princess Momo had a magic mirror, big and round and made of the finest silver.
Every day and every night she used to send it out into the world, and the big round mirror soared over land and sea, town and countryside. People who saw it weren't a bit surprised. All they ever said was,
'Ah, there's the moon.'
Well, every time the magic mirror came back to the princess it would empty out the reflections it had collected on its travels, beautiful and ugly, interesting and dull, as the case might be. The princess picked out the ones she liked best. The others she simply threw into a stream, and quicker than the speed of thought these discarded reflections sped back to their owners along the waterways of the earth. That's why you'll find your own reflection looking at you whenever you bend over a stream or a pool of water.
I forgot to mention that Princess Momo was immortal. Why? Because she'd never seen her own reflection in the magic mirror, and anyone who saw his own reflection in it became mortal at once. Being well aware of this, Princess Momo took care not to do so. She'd always been quite content to live and play with her many other reflections.
One day, however, the magic mirror brought her a reflection that appealed to her more than any other. It was the reflection of a young prince. As soon as she saw it, she longed to meet him face to face. How was she to set about it, though? She didn't know where he lived or who he was -- she didn't even know his name.
For want of a better idea, she decided to look into the magic mirror after all, thinking that it might carry her own reflection to the prince. There was a chance that he might be looking up at the sky when the mirror floated past and would see her in it. Perhaps he would follow the mirror back to the palace and find her there.
So she gazed into the mirror, long and hard, and sent it off around the world with her reflection. By so doing, of course, she lost her immortality.
Before saying what happened to her next, I must tell you something about the prince. His name was Girolamo, and he ruled a great kingdom of his own creation. This kingdom was situated neither in the present nor the past, but always one day ahead in the future, which was why it was called Futuria. Everyone who dwelt there loved and admired the prince.
'Your Royal Highness,' the prince's advisers told him one day, 'it's time you got married.'
The prince had no objection, so Futuria's loveliest young ladies were brought to the palace for him to choose from. They all made themselves look as beautiful as possible, because each of them naturally wanted his choice to fall on her.
Among them, however, was a wicked fairy who had managed to sneak into the palace. The blood that ran in her veins was green and cold, not red and warm, but nobody noticed this because she had painted her face so skilfully.
When the Prince of Futuria entered the great, golden throne room she quickly muttered such a potent spell that poor Girolamo had eyes for no one but her. He found her so incomparably beautiful that he asked her on the spot if she would be his wife.
'With pleasure,' hissed the wicked fairy, 'but only on one condition.'
'Name it,' the prince said promptly, without a second thought.
'Very well,' said the wicked fairy, and she smiled so sweetly that the poor prince's head swam.
'For one whole year, you must never look up at the moon in the sky. If you do, you will instantly lose all your royal possessions. You will forget who you really are and find yourself transported to the land of Presentia, where you will lead the life of a poor, unknown wretch. Do you accept my terms?'
'If that's all you ask,' cried Prince Girolamo, 'what could be easier!'
Meanwhile, Princess Momo had been waiting in vain for the prince to appear, so she resolved to venture out into the world and look for him. She let all her reflections go and, leaving her stained-glass palace behind, set off down the snow-clad mountainside in her dainty little slippers. She roamed the world until she came to Presentia, by which time her slippers were worn out and she had to go barefoot, but the magic mirror bearing her reflection continued to soar overhead.
One night, while Prince Girolamo was sitting on the roof of his golden palace, playing checkers with the fairy whose blood was cold and green, he felt a little drop of moisture on his hand.
'Ah,' said the green-blooded fairy, 'it's starting to rain.'
'It can't be,' said the prince. 'There isn't a cloud in the sky.'
And he looked up, straight into the big silver mirror soaring overhead, and saw from Princess Momo's reflection that she was weeping and that one of her tears had fallen on to his hand. And at that instant he realized that the fairy had tricked him -- that she wasn't beautiful at all and had cold, green blood in her veins. His true love, he realized, was Princess Momo.
'You've broken your promise,' snapped the green-blooded fairy, scowling so hideously that she looked like a snake, 'and now you must pay the price!'
And then, while Prince Girolamo sat there as though paralyzed, she reached inside him with her long, green fingers and tied a knot in his heart. Instantly forgetting that he was the Prince of Futuria, he slunk out of his palace like a thief in the night and wandered far and wide till he came to Presentia, where he took the name Guido and lived a life of poverty and obscurity. All he'd brought with him was Princess Momo's reflection from the magic mirror, which was blank from then on.
By now Princess Momo had abandoned the ragged remains of her silk and satin gown. She wore a patchwork dress and a man's cast-off jacket, far too big for her, and was living in an ancient ruin.
When the two of them met there one fine day, Princess Momo failed to recognize poor, good-for-nothing Guido as the Prince of Futuria. Guido didn't recognize her either, because she no longer looked like a princess, but they became companions in misfortune and a source of consolation to each other.
One evening when the magic mirror, now blank, was floating across the sky, Guido took out
Momo's reflection and showed it to her. Crumpled and faded though it was, the princess immediately recognized it as her own -- the one she'd sent soaring around the world. And then, as she peered more closely at the poor wretch beside her, she saw he was the long-sought prince for whose sake she had renounced her immortality.
She told him the whole story, but Guido sadly shook his head.
"Your words, mean nothing to me," he said. "There's a knot in my heart, and it stops me remembering."
So Princess Momo laid her hand on his breast and untied the knot in his heart with ease, and
Prince Girolamo suddenly remembered who he was and where he came from. And he took Princess
Momo by the hand and led her far, far away, to the distant land of Futuria."
They both sat silent for a while when Guido had finished.
Then Momo asked, "Did they ever get married?"
“I think so," said Guido, "-- later on."
"And are they dead now?"
"No," Guido said firmly, "I happen to know that for a fact. The magic mirror only made you mortal if you looked into it on your own. If two people looked into it together, it made them immortal again, and that's what those two did."
The big, silver moon floated high above the dark pine trees, bathing the ruin's ancient stonework in its mysterious light. Momo and Guido sat there side by side, gazing up at it for a long time and feeling quite certain that, if only for the space of that enchanted moment, the pair of them were immortal.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

near you..

whats gona happen when you leave and go away
my heart will try and find you each and every day
my eyes will long to see you and my ears will wana hear you
i dont know what i will do when i cannot be near you..

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Francesca Woodman

ghost..

somehow feel as if a part of me is gone, as if an extention of me is somehow ghostly floating behind me.. and I can feel it but I cant touch it.. I cant fully take it upon myself anymore.   And this feeling, somedays makes me ache all over every inch of me. Encompassing my body, mind, and spirit....

word!

Love watercolors

Moon River- Honey Trees

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ubeFZwCR2lM

Ellie Goulding - Sweet Disposition

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IplEnGzNaKw

Bookends, Simon and Garfunkel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=goll8dbyppU

Beauty is certainly a soft, smooth, slippery thing, and therefore of a nature which easily slips in and permeates our souls.

At 27.. soon to be 28 I never thought that this would be my life.  You can say its kind of been a wild rollercoaster ride even though I hate that analogy.  I'm separated, the only thing tying me to a stranger I know very well, or thought I knew are my two beautiful girls.  I came out ( well was outed)  as being bisexual last year.  In turn costing me everything.  I up and moved not that long ago away from a person I loved, and a place I had gotten so comfortable with to the sunny sugary sandy beaches of Florida.  Although, daunting and scary to move to a new place with no home, no prospects and no money.. I think im starting to fall in love with it here.  Although, I will always hold a little resentment for the sunshine state being that moving here cost me a great love.  In the end though eveything happens for a reason. And if there is no good reason.. well at least I can say I got to bask in beauty of the beach and the ocean anytime I wanted.  And I get to sing my girls to sleep everynight.   Im trying hard to find my niche here.. and really just trying to find myself.  And regardless of all pain Ive endured and how much Ive struggled and broken down, I am rising like a phoenix once again.   I want to see beauty again, trust again, love again and smile cause I truly am happy.   So I guess I should be ultra dramatic and throw my arms up in the air and say, " Look out world here I come!" And those of you who know me.. well u know I had to do it after writing that.:)

Version of Me

Im sorry for you I could not be some other version of me
One that made staying everything, leaving impossible, and anyone else invisible
One you'd never lie to, cheat on, use up ,throw away.
One you wouldnt give useless promises sealed with meaningless kisses too.
And plans for a life you knew would never happen.
One that saw you for you, excepting and loving all of you even the imperfections

Im sorry for you I could not be some other version of me
One that made colors brighter and moments so full of love and passion that it seemed the whole world had fallen away
One that gave kisses so deep you felt as if I was reaching your soul
One that held your hand as if doing so would save you, hold you as if it was the only way you could breath
One that gave smiles a plenty and gazes into your beautiful eyes that meant a thousand I love yous

Im sorry for you I could not be some other version of me
One that had all the answers and all the right questions
One that knew the reason for every rhyme and doubt was scarce.
One that had confidence and bravery like yours, and an unwillingness to fail, to fall
One that comforted you, supported you, one that said Im sorry and please forgive me
One that was stronger, unemotional, and where the only thing I wore on my arm was my sleeve and not my heart
One that saw beauty in  the small things, good in all things and tried to help you see it too

Im sorry for you I could not be some other version of me
Cause the girl I gave u WAS all these things, did all these things, and you broke her.
And for awhile I would look in the mirror and wonder where she was. 
It has hurt to breath and the thought of trusting anyone again has my heart scared shitless
But with every ounce of strength I have left, I wake up everyday with a strong ache to not cry, not hurt, not fall apart, not ever think of you and realize the girl I used to be is still here, putting herself back together and realizing she is deserving of so much better than what you gave her.

Check this out

http://www.buzzfeed.com/expresident/pictures-that-will-restore-your-faith-in-humanity

striving to be much muchier